Aesthetic jealousy 2022-02-10 Others' aesthetics will always look better than my own. I will just start. I will grow incrementally. I will act consistently. I can't see my own system of aesthetics the way others will. I can only change little things a little at a time. I must not imagine a system of aesthetics and strive for it, as I do not have the feedback mechanism to notice when I've succeeded. I must notice and follow my own arising desires to do beautiful things. When inspired to mimic a piece from another's system of aesthetics, I must adopt it in relation to my own context, and with beautiful modifications that fit it comfortably into my life. I will honor the moments when I see a flash of my own whole system of aesthetics from afar.